days like THESE...

today was truly one of "those days"...one of those days when I literally have to give myself a ten minute internal "talk down" when I get in my car to leave work. I have to tell myself all over again why I do love my job, why I love my students, why I get up everyday and do it all over again. I have to remember the jobs before. I have to remember summer. I have to remember what it's like to have a random schedule. What it's like to wake up dreading work each and every single day. I have to keep all that in mind. Because I really do love my job. I really do enjoy what I'm doing. I really do love my students. I really am thankful that I finally realized and gave in to the fact that the ability to teach these children is my gift and my purpose in life...
Now, why was today one of those days? Well, today was the second day of our 2nd 9 weeks at school...so that means report cards come out next week and we have a teacher work day this week...we also have an inservice day so the students only have 3 days of school this week. That never makes for good behavior. They have this way of simply going CRAZY when anything is out of the routine. Today, they were simply terrible! So much so I would ask/tell them to do something and they would look right at me, acknowledge what I had said, and then directly disobey me. While I'm still watching. This, mind you is a normal occurrence in my classroom. However, usually one or two of my students chose to act in this manner at a time. Today, it was 12 students at the same exact time doing NOTHING that I asked them to. We literally had about 10 minutes of productive time all day. The rest of the day was spent yelling and chasing after them. It's just discouraging when it happens! I really really truly pride myself on my ability to handle my classroom. I'm proud of the way my students love, respect, and listen to me. When I have days like this, it's just a let down.
Tomorrow is a new day...and it HAS to be better. It literally can't get one little bit worse! :) I'm not trying to write a blog just to gripe, just really needed to get it all off my chest and now I feel better!
Still exhausted...still stressed...but better none the less!
Over all, life is good. I know I've been terrible about updating...sorry...
thanks for reading and hope you are all doing well!!!